I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). I ran out of space in the last entry to tell you something else that happened. Perhaps you recall me telling you about the guy who came in some time ago that was extremely medicated and everyone gave him a hard time. Anyway, apparently he struggled so much with the written assignments that the man who is this groups social worker, Mr. Silver, finally pulled the plug and terminated him from the ERP program. Silver has a reputation for running the most difficult program here, giving the most work and is known as extremely dedicated. I didn’t think the guy who got kicked out would last as long as he did. It is ironic that a man with mental illness that he can’t help and that he is being treated for with medication can’t make it here yet so many that have come here for this ERP program clearly don’t belong here make it. This isn’t the fault of the staff here or MSDF but is a reflection of the money based culture of rehabilitation and how it relates to mental illness. But I’ll stay off my soap box. Again, it was incredibly warm Friday (June 3rd). Nothing much of anything happened until second shift arrived and when our old friend guard Mike Metcalf reported for duty. He started off quiet but quickly showed his true colors as he gave warnings to inmates for having fingernails that were too long, how their shirts looked and so forth. It’s just as well. The new guys got their introduction to what this guy is about and will hopefully steer clear, as those of us who have been here awhile do. Another sign I’m mentally checking out of here is how it relates to food. I’m not interested in accumulating food, even with the good stuff like the cupcakes we got with the fish. I don’t want to make deals with others. I’m not the only one. ERP group member John Lloyd tells everyone he just wants to be left alone by everybody and he’s getting more and more vocal about it every day. It stayed extremely hot in here through Saturday. Our group continues to distract themselves with cards and ping pong games despite how hot it is in the dayroom and rec room. The rec room doesn’t have any air movement at all. At least the dayroom as 2 large fans to blow the hot humid air around. The rec room, which will double as our ERP group room next week, has the 2 exercise bikes and 2 weight machines so all these hot sweaty bodies plus no air movement makes for a pretty onerous smell. Also, the shower procedure put in place by guard Art Coleman isn’t being followed by the other guards. Though we like that it’s going to create this guessing game when we should follow that procedure. Sunday came and finally a bit of cool down before sweltering temps are expected to return next week. Cellie Larry Sands got a visit by his brother and was happy his release clothes will be sent tomorrow. Release clothes are exactly what they sound like. The clothes got send to MSDF staff no more than 60 days before your release which you get to wear out the door. In my case, I’m just going to wear my sweats I got off the catalog. The blog sponsor getting me is bringing my clothes they got from Waukesha County Jail after I was transferred to prison. Those were the same clothes I wore 758 days ago when this whole thing began though I doubt the pants still fit! But at least the shoes will be in better shape than the ones I got off the catalog. I finished the day by reaching out to Barb via letter about the situation with Lexi. I want to put my best foot forward with her despite our past relationship. I’m hoping to get more information about what happened. It’s all I can do from this cell to positively impact this situation so I’m doing it. Believe me I know it’s not enough but I’m trying. Tomorrow (Monday) our ERP social worker Ms. Grey will be back and this will be our final week of the ERP program. It’s almost over!
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Victim Impact Letter Review
Posted: November 29, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: Alabama, Augie, Bunker, catheter, ceremony, computer, Detention, didn, disc, goal, goals, Grey, handout, haven, Impact, Information, Institution, JoAnn, letter, member, Microsoft, Milwaukee, MSDF, news, officer, Phase, Prescott, presentation, Prison, Program, Release, Review, room, Scott, Secure, session, Some, System, Though, Transformer, Truth, Undo, victim, wasn, wife, Wisconsin, word, worker, wouldn
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). We were supposed to start our ERP group morning session with the remaining Phase 3 goal and objectives presentation but group member Augie Prescott was absent due to a medical issue so our ERP social worker Ms. Grey, decided to review each victim impact letter with us prior to their presentation to the group on Thursday. Speaking of Augie, we found out his interstate compact which would allow him to move to Alabama upon release, was approved. Some more good news was that Scott Bunker has had his catheter removed and has been cleared of serious medical issues. So this was all good to hear. I was the first one to have my victim impact letter reviewed with Ms. Grey. It was from my ex-wife JoAnn. She described hating being alone during our marriage, the disastrous effect on my stepdaughters, being left with the mortgage, accused me of being unfaithful (which isn’t true) while admitting she had not been a saint either. Though it was biased, there was a lot of truth in what she said. I’m not nervous about reading it to the group though. There was nothing there I haven’t talked about or have been dishonest about with my ERP group. After I was done, I went up to the computer room to work on our graduation project handout for the ceremony. It wasn’t long before I was joined by just about everybody in the group all giving their input on what it should look like while standing behind me. Every time I did something that didn’t work out they were of course quick to point that out. I patiently explained about the Undo function in Microsoft Word. Ms. Grey sent word when she saw everyone up in the computer room with me that I wasn’t allowed to talk about the letter from JoAnn. She needn’t have worried. I still don’t volunteer information about myself unnecessarily. But the good news on the graduation project handout is that the images Ms. Grey gave me this time – the bumblebee transformer – worked out well this time. Not only that, but since everyone was waiting they all had the chance to sign off on its design. So I put it on the disc and would give it to Ms. Grey at the afternoon session. Let’s hope it’s done. The afternoon session started off with Ms. Grey telling us she would not share how she evaluated us in Phase 2 and if we wanted to see it we would have to ask our parole officer (PO) after we got out. When we asked why, she just flat out said she didn’t want to. We were pretty mystified and annoyed. Wouldn’t she want us to know how we were evaluated? We want to see it if the PO does, though these guys who have been locked up before say the PO doesn’t care about such things. So that caused a bit of a stir after group. The rest of the day was spent listening to the goals and objectives of the rest of the group members. Tomorrow is Wednesday, a Training Day, which means there are no groups. She has the disc with our graduation project program on it. I don’t anticipate an eventful rest of the week. I’ll probably end up regretting I said that!
Some Like It Hot
Posted: November 7, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: alcoholism, Andre, assistance, ball, bottles, Brian, Bush, cell, cellie, cellies, Charles, cord, Corey, courtesy, cousin, decision, Detention, door, efforts, George, girls, Information, inmates, Institution, Johnson, Larry, letter, member, Milwaukee, money, MSDF, person, Phase, Points, predator, President, Prison, Program, prongs, purpose, radio, Release, Russ, saltwater, Sands, Secure, skit, soda, Some, stepfather, System, Though, topic, Whalen, Wisconsin, Work
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). It’s Wednesday which is a no group day and we’re supposed to be working on something ERP program related. Work is pretty thin for us at this stage called Phase III. But I found something to do. I wrote the outline for the skit that I volunteered to do at the last community meeting and ERP group member Russ Johnson agreed to assist me with. It will be on the topic of pretentiousness, focusing on how you can suffer from alcoholism despite having money, friends, and a good family. You might ask if asking Johnson to help was done on purpose especially in light of the kind of person he is. Not entirely would be my answer. He asked for my assistance on his skit so I thought it okay to ask for his help on mine. But the thought did cross my mind when preparing the skit. So Wednesday is spent largely in the cell by choice. My cellies also now spend the majority of their time in the cell as I do, especially ERP group member Larry Sands. And yes him and Brian Whalen still tell their raunchy stories but not as much as they used to. Cellie Corey Ball makes comments about teenage girls because he figured out this really gets under my skin. He means to tease, please don’t think he’s a predator. He’s become the go to guy for making hot water for other folks, using metal prongs in a radio cord, then sticking it in a trash can with saltwater, then plugging it in and waiting for it to nearly boil. This leads to a parade of people coming to the door with soda bottles full of water for Ball to put in this trash can. Inmates make decaf coffee, refried beans and other such things through this. He usually gets little for his efforts and takes on all the risk. But he’s indicated he is going to stop doing it now, especially since his graduation is so close. If you get caught doing this, you will go to the hole and you are putting your whole program at risk so his decision makes sense. He hasn’t blown the electricity yet like others did so that’s good. Though my cellies can be annoying at times, I generally like all 3. I’m going to get 2 new ones after Whalen and Ball leave in mid-May so I pray that goes well. No one like Andre Charles please! I started a new book today courtesy of Johnson called Decision Points by former President George W. Bush. It’s a good read. At mail call I did get an interesting letter from my biological father’s sister. As you might recall we have been going back and forth with e-mails through my sponsors now that we have found each other, along with a cousin. She revealed what I suspected. She and my father were horribly abused by their father and stepfather, physically and sexually, for years. I hadn’t know about the stepfather. But the sick person he became, I completely now get why he did what he did. It’s not ok, but I understand. I replied by apologizing for being angry at their family for so many years for not protecting me and thanked her for sharing. She says this information can never be shared. I’ll respect that. She also said she loved me and I told her the same.
Plastic Headphones Suck
Posted: October 31, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: adoptive, blog, break, Brian Whalen, bullet, catalog, catcalls, cellie, Charles Martin, comments, computer, Corey Ball, crazy, disbursement, discovered, distant, drug, ear, Earned Release Program, Easter, ERP, event, ex-wife, family, father, form, Glass, Guard, headphones, honesty, hope, identity, inmate, inspection, Jack & Marcus, joked, joking, kids, letter, library, life span, memory, Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility, MSDF, nervous, parents, plastic, Problem, Professional, Release, remarkable, retirement, room, Roscoe Peters, screen, security, Staff, therapist, trouble, visit, walls, Wisconsin Prison System, WPS
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). I couldn’t believe it but on Friday evening the Koss headphones I bought off the Jack & Marcus catalog cracked over the right ear piece. Cellie Corey Ball had tape and managed to make them useable for the short term. He and cellie Brian Whalen are graduating May 6th, over over 2 weeks away so they each tried to get me to buy their headphones or ear buds. I had to say no because in the event of an inspection that could be trouble for me. But these plastic clear headphones are frustrating. They appear to have no more than a 4 to 6 month life span before they break and doubly so because I’m 2 months away from release. I bit the bullet and put in an order for a new pair of headphones. After Ball and Whalen leave I’m going to have 2 new cellies come in for my last 45 days or so and no telling what they might be like. Headphones are an essential piece from going crazy at times. Guard Roscoe Peters was very professional in signing the disbursement form and such even if he was distant. Since this blog was discovered, professional but distant, would be the way to describe how most of the staff treats me. No joking around and such, but that’s ok. Many ask me about specific blog entries, especially the identify of the guard who had a drug problem. I’ve taken to saying its all made up just to avoid the questions even though of course it isn’t. Nobody buys it anyway as they all think they know who it is. Anyway, one thing I haven’t covered here are the visits we get, mostly because since my arrival I haven’t had any. But once you are called for a visit, such as Whalen was this weekend by the therapist who sent him the letter. (who by the way are doing quite well) You go into the room that doubles as the computer room on the top floor and as the library on the bottom. Anyone in the room at the time has to leave. It’s a video visit more like what you would do over a webcam or in a county jail. The biggest problem you might have is the inmates walking by and checking out who is visiting with you and what they look like. And of course, then the comments and catcalls you receive after. It’s very easy for others to see the person because of the glass walls and the size of the screen. I’m sure this is designed this way for security reasons though. When Whalen finished, of course everyone in the room joked about his visit which he enjoyed. The good thing about this cell is when people joke around with each other it doesn’t get taken too far, unlike some other cells here. On Sunday I got to speak with my adoptive parents, Charles and Victoria Martin. After wishing each other a Happy Easter, they let me know my ex-wife had had her father pass away a week prior. Like many inmates I get annoyed with the time delay in getting news. But what are you going to do? I wrote her a condolence letter which considering how angry I used to be with her, is quite remarkable. In it I shared a memory of her father, expressed hope that her and the kids were okay and told her I looked forward to seeing the family at Charles Martin’s retirement in July even though it also makes me nervous. Honesty is good and this isn’t something I would have done almost 24 months ago.
Past and Present are Colliding
Posted: October 24, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: adoptive, Another, bombshell, brother, Charles, Detention, device, discussions, dynamics, farewell, Gaither, Gayle, goals, Grey, history, inmates, Institution, leader, letter, life, Martin, Michigan, Milwaukee, module, MSDF, officer, option, paper, parents, Past, person, Phase, Present, Prison, Program, refusal, Release, response, retirement, Secure, System, topic, Victoria, violence, wife, Wisconsin, women
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). I’m still dealing with the ripple effect from my trip to the hole. The guards that packed my stuff were not gentle and had destroyed all my boxes which I had used to store my things here. They put it all in brown paper bags. I don’t know how I’m going to carry that stuff out of here when I leave in about 60 days. One thing is for sure as well. I’m probably the only person in the history of the WPS to go to the hole for blogging related reasons. Not exactly good for my cred with other inmates you know? I can’t even picture myself explaining it. Of course I’m kidding. But these were thoughts going through my head. I spoke with my adoptive parents Charles and Victoria Martin and while I was in the hole they had discussions with my parole officer Gayle Gaither and they were going to put a phone line in for my electronic monitoring device. Gaither also told them she approved me to attend his retirement party and services in Michigan in mid-July. Charles says farewell to his career as a full-time minister. They they dropped a bombshell on me. It seems my ex-wife and former step-children will be there as well. Boy, with that, just getting out of prison and dealing with all sorts of family and friends from over the years that weekend, its making me already wish I could hide on that weekend. But that’s not an option. The anxiety junkie has just got to suck it up for the sake of my adoptive father and the family. Another loose end left over prior to going to the hole was the response to my biological family letter. My aunt had revealed that my biological father and her “had protected each other” as children and basically I shouldn’t be so hard on him for the things that happened and she was sorry they hadn’t been there to protect me and my half-brother. My response wasn’t based on what I’ve learned but on instinct. I pray it was the right one. I asked when and if she was comfortable to share what happened to her and him as kids so I might understand him. I also told her I’m not angry at all with them for not protecting me and the domino effect of all this through the years. Between you and me I probably was angry at them somewhat over time. But I sense we’re right at the edge of something huge here and it could be life changing for all of us. After that, it was another rough night of sleep. Perhaps all of this stress with things like my release, adopted family, biological family, and ripple effect from the blog being discovered is getting to me. It’s a different kind of stress than paying the bills and going to work everyday but its real nonetheless. The topic today for the ERP group coincidentally was domestic violence. Our ERP group leader Ms. Grey was again very upbeat. She also pointed out much of the lack of dynamics in our ERP group was our refusal to challenge each other. She’s right of course. We watched videos depicting various people who hurt the women in their lives. I shared my biological father’s cycle of violence since it was already on my mind. At the end of the day, Ms. Grey indicated I’d only have to make up one module I missed while I was in the hole. She also indicated our Phase II goals and objectives would have to be presented this week so I’ll need to get busy on that.
Tie A Yellow Ribbon Around the Old Oak Tree
Posted: October 10, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: adoptive, alcohol, Anyway, appearance, April, Around, ball, Bunker, cancer, catheter, Charles, clue, daughter, dayroom, Detention, endings, fact, goodwill, homeowner, Hospital, hotel, Impact, inmate, inmates, Institution, Jail, letter, life, Martin, member, Milwaukee, MSDF, obsession, officer, Orlando, parents, pastor, person, Prison, Professional, Program, recovery, Release, retirement, Ribbon, Scott, Secure, self, situation, song, Still, System, tension, Tony, Tree, tributes, Truth, victim, Victoria, Waukesha, wife, Wisconsin
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). Do you know the song “Tie a Yellow Ribbon Around the Old Oak Tree” by Tony Orlando? It’s a nice song that tells a nice story about an inmate who gets release from prison and wonders if his love will take him back. If she will, she’s supposed to tie a yellow ribbon around the oak tree in front of their house. Well he gets there on a bus and he finds, with everyone cheering around him, there are a hundred yellow ribbons on the oak tree. Like I said, it’s a nice story. Happy endings in prison are so rare I have found. But when one comes along you can’t help but cheer along with the inmate. I’ve told you how ERP group member Scott Bunker endured a potentially serious medical condition over the last few days. Saturday came and hadn’t improved. In fact, I’m told it had gotten worse. It must be true, for the guards took him on a weekend , which is quite rare, back to the hospital again. He again returned, this time having been fitted with a catheter. It kind of reminds me too that even us inmates are capable of setting aside the pettiness, racial tension and self obsession that seems to consume us here when a person among us falls sick. Seeing Bunker sick made us united in the hope for his recovery and conveying that to him. Still we are men. There of course were the jokes about him being “on his period.” Tasteless yes but juvenile humor is often how men will cope and as a group deal with a tough situation. When I was diagnosed with cancer while at Waukesha county Jail awaiting transfer to WPS, an inmate yelled so everyone could hear, “Hey Martin you gonna die or what?” We all laughed. I was grateful for the break in the tension. Anyway, the goodwill generated by Bunker’s situation seemed to last all day. Then that night, according to him, without them knowing what had happened, his second wife and step-daughter showed up for a visit after not having communicated at all for the past 2 years. What occurred was just amazing! She told him she wanted him to come home to them after all and that they still loved him. He had sent his victim impact letter to her so perhaps this got the ball rolling. After he got off his visit he went around the dayroom telling everyone that would listen, trying to act indifferent about it but the smile on his face betrayed him. I’m just very happy for him. I’m not the type to always describe to God every good or bad thing that happens. But how could you not in this case? On Sunday, it was time for my weekly call to my adoptive parents, Charles and Victoria Martin. I’ve seen them once since I was in prison and recently started talking to me via phone. They’re consumed by retirement planning as Charles is retiring as a pastor shortly after my anticipated release. They are moving to a place in WI which is where I’m thinking I’ll end up initially after release. Their first concern was to talk to my parole officer (PO) up there to try to get alcohol allowed at the house. No go there! Their second was the retirement party at the hotel on the Saturday prior to the retirement service and whether alcohol could be present. I told them I’d be talking to the PO about it this week. Truth is though I’m dreading the whole thing. After a rough start in life, I’d became an IT Professional, homeowner, and family man. I had earned respect of others. Now I’ll see all these people I’ve known over the years alone, penniless and no job. I have no clue how to deal with that. I’m sure I’m not the first guy to have to go there after prison. I wrote a letter to my adoptive parents asking them to allow me to duck out on Saturday after making an appearance but then to participate in all the hoopla, pictures and tributes at his retirement service on Sunday. But I’ve got to trust God to look after me the same way he looked after Scott Bunker. It may not be as dramatic but I’ve learned God will always get me through. The retirement party is in July and its April. A lot can happen between now and then.
A Guard Makes a Bad Choice
Posted: September 26, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: account, Andre, Anyway, area, attention, avail, blood, Brian, cell, cellie, Charles, Choice, Come, conquest, coordinator, dayroom, Detention, donations, door, drugs, Either, fact, food, friend, goals, Grey, Guard, Information, Institution, involvement, Larry, Later, letter, lockers, Makes, medication, Milwaukee, money, movie, MSDF, officer, Peters, Phase, Prison, proclamations, Program, Release, role, room, Roscoe, Sands, Secure, swamper, swampers, System, threat, trays, Unit, Whalen, Wisconsin, worksheet, wouldn
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). It was an uneventful weekend until Sunday. I revised my goals and objectives for Phase II and am hoping they’re right this time, as well as completing the worksheet review for the movie 28 Days. But what really got our attention was the blonde female guard who rarely works on this unit. She had for some reason looked up the account balance of the swamper who we know is setting up my cellie Brian Whalen to be robbed when he gets out by pretending to be his friend now. It seems this swamper has a large amount of money on his books. This guard commended she could use ‘a loan’ and asked for his contact information which he willingly provided. If I heard this story I wouldn’t have believed it either except I happened to be in the dayroom area when it went down. This swamper is assuming either she wants drugs, sex or both from him as he bragged on this conquest to others. Either this guard isn’t very bright or this swamper is getting set up. For her sake, I hope it’s the latter, because he’s not a nice guy. Never mind the fact she’s been completely compromised in her role as a guard. Speaking of Whalen he has lost over 50 pounds since coming to MSDF. He’s always making proclamations how he’s going to stop eating this or that or making bets he’s going to lose a certain number of pounds. He’s betting cellie Larry Sands he’ll lose 20 lbs in the approximately 40 days he has left until graduation. It isn’t realistic but it’s motivating to him to have this kind of thing out there. He’s gone from 330 lbs to 280 lbs so he really has done well. We (Sands and I) continue to discourage his involvement with this swamper in a very careful way but to no avail. He is a people pleaser and desperately wants to be liked, as we’ve learned. It’s kind of sad to watch. Come Monday we were all assembled in the dayroom when we were informed our ERP group coordinator Ms. Grey wouldn’t be coming in and we were to keep working on our goals for Phase II. Since none of us had them approved yet we had a lot of time on our hands. While sitting in the room Whalen confided something to me that kind of made my blood run cold. It seems the now departed former cellie Andre Charles had managed to get his sister’s address and sent her a letter saying how much he wanted to meet her. Whalen was furious, understandably so. I could just imagine how I’d feel if he had gotten addresses of my former stepdaughters or friends. Fortunately all mail between the sponsors including the things you folks send me to read is done through a PO Box. But it gave me the chills. He threatened to go to Andre’s parole officer (PO). I urged him to do so. Later on, a guard came down and shook down the cell next door where he collected a whole ton of food the swampers had swiped from the meal trays and medication from the swamper who’d been forced to move to another cell in one of their lockers. Nothing came of it that I knew of but regular first shift guard Roscoe Peters had us all come out as if it was count and warned us to get rid of any extra food and if he finds any he’d get us kicked out of the program. The swampers guilty of it all took a bag to collect any donations. Not a thing was given up. I’m sure no one was taking the threat seriously. Anyway, we went back about our business. I just keep to myself, follow the rules and try not to let it get to me, you know?
Sugar, Caffeine, and Tobacco
Posted: September 21, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: Adrenals, Afterwards, blog, Body, Brian, Caffeine, carton, cellie, cigarettes, Come, cost, Detention, Effects, efficiency, English, evils, Grey, Harmful, Health, inmate, Institution, kids, Larry, leader, letter, location, machines, Maybe, Milwaukee, Mind, Most, MSDF, Nikita, odor, paper, pong, Prison, Program, Quite, reference, Release, room, Secure, students, sugar, supper, System, Tobacco, topic, Whalen, Wisconsin, worries
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). I actually ventured out this weekend and socialized a bit, playing ping pong on the table in the rec room that doubles as the location where our ERP group meets. I always thought the smell of body odor was strong when our group met during the day but when the rec room weight machines are in use its almost overwhelming. But like most things you adjust. I lost every single ping pong game, including two to cellie Brian Whalen and one to cellie Larry Sands. I used to be pretty good years ago but ping pong is all about touch and if you don’t have it your going to lose. I spoke with my adoptive parents about initially staying with them when I get out or trying to find a way to make it at a shelter or finding a way to find a halfway house but we really didn’t resolve anything. Come Monday shortly after 9:30 am, our ERP leader Ms. Grey and intern Nikita came in. We are again doing the previously abandoned breathing exercises, but now its voluntary to participate. Afterwards, we got into the evils of sugar and The Harmful Effects of Sugar on Mind and Body (squar is right!) followed by materials on The Harmful Effects of Caffeine and on Caffeine and your Adrenals – could they be paying dearly?, which targets women. Since we’re all men, this confused us a bit. Quite frankly, we were all wondering why we were looking at sugar and caffeine issues. After lunch the next topic wasn’t much better – tobacco. Most of us had previously smoked cigarettes, but this topic drew a lot of annoyed looks. I have to admit I was pretty restless too. The video targeted junior high kids and said cigarettes cost $23 a carton. Ok, probably in 1987 that might have been true! At the end we took a test which I did ok on. But no worries on me smoking. Its too expensive now and it would be very bad for my health. After supper though, I got something that made my day. At mail call, my sponsors had sent me a letter. There was a note from 3 high school students who are doing an English paper on prison efficiency and effectiveness and were using this blog as a reference. I wrote back saying I’d love to help and read their paper when they’re done. Maybe I’ll even publish it here. It made me feel good this blog has helped others as it has for the past 15 months. But mostly it’s helped me. I wish every inmate has had the opportunity my sponsors provided me.