I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). As soon as ERP social worker Ms. Grey got our group in session that morning, I immediately asked her about who were the guys with warrants. It has been the topic of conversation with us since she dropped that bomb the day before. Obviously, we’re making plans for our release in 21-31 days. Whoever of us have the warrants, it’s going to present a complication. Ms. Grey said the people were cellie Larry Sands and group member Augie Prescott. Sands had thought it was possible it was him but he reasoned it was a good thing as once he sits in Waukesha County Jail for the fine he owes he’ll actually get released before the rest of us will. For Prescott, it’s a little more complicated. His interstate compact had just been approved. How this will affect everything for him is unclear. But then Ms. Grey told him she wasn’t sure it was him, thus continuing the uncertainty. I’m not worried about this. But I feel for Prescott and Sands. We started out taking the test we took when we first started our ERP group. This time we corrected each others. I got 6 wrong. I don’t remember how I did last time. Then she announced our second test will actually have to wait. Apparently there are things we hadn’t covered yet so we couldn’t take the test. Two things of interest that happened in our morning session. First, former cellie Malik Pearl and one guy in his cell were the last ones left from the last graduating ERP class were moved to the ninth floor. Pearl’s paperwork hadn’t returned from the Brown County Judge involved after 14 days. They needed their beds for the incoming ERP class so off they went to the ninth floor. Man, I hope I don’t have issues like this when my time comes to get released! My paperwork will come back from a Winnebago County Judge so we’ll see. The second thing was a guy who slept in a bunk near me at Fox Lake Minimum Correctional Institution (FMCI) named Les Simon arrived. He played guitar there and I had been impressed with him as a person. After lunch he joined me at my table in the dayroom while I waited to go to the afternoon session. I got him up to speed on the routine here and he got me caught up on some of the stuff that had gone on there. It seems Percy had gotten him too, giving him 5 days bunk confinement for a petty offense there. The worship team doesn’t exist anymore after team members repeatedly stole instruments. They did put on a concert there that raised a lot of money for charity that included a Native American dance put together by my former bunkie prior his release in January. I’m sorry I missed that. But a lot of those I mentioned while I was there are gone. Ms. Greer continues to work hard for people there but she had to set some boundaries. Quite understandable. Far and away she was the best social worker I’ve encountered in my time in prison. In our afternoon session we watched the movie Omar and Pete, which I’ve seen on the institutional channel at FMCI. It was quite good, depicting the story of two inmates trying to stay out of prison. We got a 19 question worksheet on this movie due Monday. Afterwards, Ms. Grey had complained about not being able to find the pictures of the transformer for the graduation program. She took me to her office and it turned out all she had to do was scroll across the screen to see it. It was a little embarrassing. She printed it and said she’d bring it to be seen by us but she never came back. That night in the dayroom Les pulled me out into the dayroom to chat some more. That night new cellie Jose Michaels got taken to task by Larry Sands playing his radio out loud, after 11. I didn’t like it but I put in my earplugs. I’ve got 21 days to graduation. I’m not going to let stuff like this get to me.
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FMCI Revisited
Posted: December 6, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: Augie Prescott, beds, bomb, Brown, bunk, Compact, confinement, conversation, Correctional, County, Detention, Earned, ERP, Facility, FMCI, Fox, graduation, guitar, impressed, Institution, interstate, issues, Jail, Jose Michaels, judge, Lake, Larry Sands, Les Simon, Malik Pearl, Milwaukee, moved, Ms. Grey, MSDF, Omar and Pete, paperwork, Percy, plans, Prison, Program, project, radio, Release, routine, Secure, System, team, Test, Transformer, warrant, Waukesha, Winnebago, Wisconsin, worship, WPS
Warrants Among Us
Posted: December 1, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: About, Among, announcement, argument, artist, bathroom, bombshell, breakfast, bunk, Carey, Carr, cells, ceremony, conspiracy, conversation, Correctional, credence, dayroom, Detention, didn, Dietz, discussion, displeasure, door, Drew, emotions, FMCI, Grey, haven, hell, hygiene, Impact, injury, inmate, inmates, Institution, Johnson, Jose, Lake, Later, Malcolm, manager, Many, member, Michaels, Milwaukee, Minimum, MSDF, Nobody, Once, opinion, outlet, Phase, poster, Prison, Program, Puerto, Release, Rican, Scott, Secure, shirt, situation, Soon, status, Supervisor, System, terrorist, theories, Unit, victim, Warrants, wasn, Wisconsin, worker
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). Wednesday was your usual Wednesday. There are no ERP groups. We did discuss our graduation project. ERP group member Scott Dietz is upset he didn’t have a speaking part in the graduation ceremony other than reading his quote. Nothing really could be done. I don’t have a speaking part either but I’m not upset. But that’s me. On Thursday morning, we had one guard with a really bad comb over and one who looked suspiciously like Drew Carey. After breakfast while brushing my teeth, the announcement came that we were to immediately return to our cells. Nobody knew what was going on. We were then informed we were on emergency lockdown and we were only allowed out if there was a medical emergency. It wasn’t long before inmates began to voice displeasure with the situation led by an inmate who had already graduated in another ERP group, especially that he wasn’t allowed to use the bathroom. The guards and him continued to argue until the familiar detachment of the guards and a white shirt (supervisor) showed up. They put him in handcuffs to take him to the hole. He was supposed to be released that day but most of us felt he would still get cut loose. Meanwhile, we were trying to figure out why we were locked down. The idea that his a major shakedown seemed to have credence with all the good traffic. Finally at about 10 am, they let us out one by one to use the bathroom. It was then I found out that the lock on the fire escape door had somehow malfunctioned thus locking us down was necessary to prevent our escape. After lunch, we were returned to lock down status. Shortly afterwards, we got our 2 new cellmates. One a tall black man was named Malcolm Johnson and the other, a Puerto Rican was named Jose Michaels. Jose didn’t have a TV which made me happy because it freed up an outlet I could use for my fan. He is a talented artist. I think him and I will get along fine. Malcolm has been through hell. He is on an upper bunk but obviously belongs on a lower. He has scars everywhere, showing us one on his leg that was caused by an injury he got fleeing from police. He and I got into an interesting discussion about the terrorist attach on 9/11/2001. He exposed various conspiracy theories and I pointed out that thousands of people would have to be complicit and silent for any of them to be true. As usual, people who present such theories make the argument into a personal attack so I just let it go. But to be honest I enjoyed the conversation. I haven’t had a good conversation like that since my days at Fox Lake Minimum Correctional Institution (FMCI). We thought we were done for the day but about 2 pm our ERP social worker, Ms. Grey, arrived. We plowed right into the victim impact letters. Reading it out loud for me to be honest produced feelings of anger and sadness. Regardless of how I feel it was about how she felt. Many of the guys who came after me also felt various emotions reading theirs. We also presented our rippled effect poster assigned back in Phase I. Then Ms. Grey dropped a bombshell today. Two of us in our ERP group had warrants for our arrest in the system but she didn’t know who of course. Later on in the dayroom that night that’s all anybody talked about and how infuriated we were that she could drop a thing like that without knowing who it is. Of course with us this close to release, it caused anxiety. Soon it was 3 pm and time for our weekly community meeting. Once again, the issue of hygiene was raised. Ms. Carr said she would be talking to the unit manager to see what could be done. The issue of the soon to be repealed Act 28 early release law. I’ve shared my opinion on this here and I did in group. That night my cellies didn’t want to go to sleep when the lights went out. I think Malcolm knew this annoyed me and he razzed me a bit but that’s ok. I can deal with anything for the next 22-32 days I have left. About midnight everyone went to sleep.
Sent To The Hole
Posted: October 18, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: About, Afterwards, Another, April, autobiography, ball, basis, blog, brass, bunk, cell, cellie, cells, communication, Corey, Correctional, Corrections, Dateline, Department, Detention, didn, Dietz, director, disaster, discussion, Dodge, door, elevator, engine, Enterprises, fact, food, Fraud, Grey, Group, guidelines, hole, incarceration, inmate, Institution, institutions, investigation, Isaiah, Jackson, June, Just, Larry, leader, life, literacy, member, Milwaukee, months, movie, MSDF, Neville, paperwork, Prison, Program, racism, relations, Release, response, room, Samuel, Sands, Scott, Secure, Sent, shirt, Supervisor, System, tier, Told, Unit, Whether, Wisconsin
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). Friday, April 8th would prove to be a pivotal day for my time in ERP and for this blog. The day for our ERP group consisted of among other things, seeing the movie, Losing Isaiah starring Samuel Jackson. Afterwards our ERP group leader Ms. Grey led a discussion on racism and its hidden forms. One of the questions given to us was whether race relations have improved which irritated me. Since when? Using what measuring stick? But Ms. Grey encouraged me to not overthink the issue which as you know I’m often quite guilty of doing. Group member Scott Dietz really set it off as usual when he said having a black ERP group leader actually managed to teach him something. Just wasn’t a smart comment to make. The week over I began to relax. About 8 pm, as I was setting into my bunk to watch Dateline, when cellie Corey Ball rushed into the room and asked me what the heck did I do? He was followed up by cellie Larry Sands who told me there were “police” there for me and I had been paged. I Told them both to stop screwing around with me, assuming they were joking. But as the guards and a white shirt (supervisor) appeared at my door seconds later I was terrified to realize this was no joke. I didn’t handle it well. After all, this was my life at stake here. Getting kicked out of the ERP program means another 18 months in prison instead of getting out in June as I’d hoped. I asked what was going on as they handcuffed me and took me down the steps of my tier. When they got me out the door they took me to the elevator and I kept asking what it was I had done. Finally the supervisor blurted out that I should look at it as an opportunity to add to my autobiography. I’m like what are you talking about? Then he said that it was the blog (this blog) he was referring to. “You did write it didn’t you?” he asked. I replied I had. I began to get a hold of myself at this point. They took me to a cage where they strip searched me after taking my cuffs off. Taking the yellow uniform away, it was replaced with a white t-shirt and orange pants. Sticking my hands through the door I was handcuffed again. I was then led hands on to my new cell. The cell had what was supposed to be entirely white walls with a bed of concrete overlaid with a green mattress. I say the walls were supposed to be white but there were smudges of crap, food, boogers or possibly all three around the room. It reminded me much of the design of the cells at Unit 19 at Dodge Correctional Institution except this cell had no hooks and had a shower included inside. The guard who locked me in must have sensed my worry. He introduced himself as Sam Neville. He urged me not to worry, that as long as I hadn’t done anything to make myself a security risk in the eyes of the security director I’d be returned to my ERP program Monday, Tuesday at the latest. Of course I’m going to worry. But I was hanging onto his words as the basis of hope that this wouldn’t be the disaster it appeared to be, that another 18 months of incarceration could be averted. Those hopes dimmed a bit as I received my paperwork notifying me I was officially under investigation under the Department of Corrections (DOC) 303 guidelines for Unauthorized forms of communication (303.30) and Enterprises and Fraud (303.32). The communication charge was because they felt I might have been posting these blog entries by accessing the internet somehow at the 4 institutions I have been at. The Enterprises charge was their attempt to fit my writing letters for the blog, although literacy works were specifically exempted. Neville told me the brass at MSDF were upset with me because when the words MSDF or ERP or Wisconsin Prison System were entered into a search engine they found this blog and not their sites listed. I argued that’s the fault of the people running the web sites for them not this little blog. He agreed but said it was due to the fact the DOC has never had to deal with this before so they don’t know how to handle it. Another problem is the name I used for an inmate was close to the name used by a guard. Of course, it was completely accidental. So I was allowed to write a response to their charges with the golf sized pencil provided which I did. Any guessing at whether the DOC or MSDF knows about the blog is gone. They know and they are unhappy.
Still Cancer Free
Posted: September 22, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: accident, Andre, announcement, appointment, birthdays, blog, blood, cancer, cell, Charles, construction, Cook, Correctional, cost, Detention, dollars, Fire, food, free, friend, Google, granite, Health, highway, Hospital, hour, inmate, Institution, insurance, Intake, June, legs, Madison, midst, Milwaukee, months, mood, MSDF, neck, noise, officer, pails, Peters, Prison, Program, Rachel, Release, remission, room, Roscoe, Secure, shouldn, situation, Still, supper, System, Tetrazzini, truck, turkey, Very, waist, Wisconsin
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). It was about 8:30 am when I heard the announcement to report to the officer’s station. I knew what it was for. I was going to Madison to get the results of the PET scans from last week to verify the cancer remains in remission. It was also the first day we saw guard Roscoe Peters since former cellie Andre Charles left. After giving him the key to my cell off the string around my neck, I went down to intake and again began the process of being strip searched and being bound with chains on my arms, legs and waist. The thought occurred to me, this is probably the last time prior to my release in June, that I’ll need to be strip searched. I hope so anyway. It’s an indignity I’m still not accustomed to nor do I think I ever will be. Of course, in keeping with what normally seems to happen on these trips for me it’s not…normal! It was raining very heavy and about 19 miles from Madison on I94W we encountered a huge traffic back up. We moved no more than 5 or 6 miles over the next hour. We finally came up on the accident scene. Fire had consumed a truck carrying thousands of pounds of beef. I’d hear later no one died thank God. We got there and I sat in the inmate waiting room. Very few were there this time which I was grateful for, as the noise was at a minimum. There was one inmate there who had 57 days left to release. He’d suffered a cardiac arrest and been brought back by the staff at Red Granite Correctional Institution. He was complimentary to them in how they’ve cared for him and the quality of their work. It was unusual to hear an inmate say such things. I went up for my blood work and got in to see my oncologist, Dr. Rachel Cook. She walked in and something I hadn’t noticed before, she was very pregnant. I told her I hoped it went well. She let me know the spots that were seen last time were either gone or ruled out as cancer. My next appointment for scans will be in 6 months instead of the 3 months that had been done. In the midst of the happiness I felt, there was a bit of a reality check. I needed to call her directly before my next appointment if I don’t come up with health insurance as these scans cost several thousand dollars. Not only would it be nice if I find a job with good health insurance after I’m out its imperative I find health insurance to ensure I see more birthdays. It shouldn’t be that way but that is the reality of the situation. But I didn’t dwell on that. I even told Dr. Cook about this blog, saying a friend wrote in her blog, thanking her for her care of me and what terms to Google to find the blog. I wanted to avoid alerting the ever present guards in the room. So Doc, if you find this blog, again, thank you! On the way back not only was it raining heavy, the winds were going crazy blowing pails and such from construction on the highway into us. But we got back fine. After another strip-search I actually got back to my cell pretty quickly. Ironically we shouldn’t have hurried. We had Turkey Tetrazzini, probably the worst meal here, for supper about 4:30 pm. If we’d gone slower I probably would have gotten another bag lunch at the hospital. But nothing would break my good mood, not even the horrid food. I’m healthy and I’m going to stay that way!
Super Bowl Fallout
Posted: June 28, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: advantage, Andre Charles, assurances, Augie Prescott, autobiography, bad, bet, betting, Brian Whalen, canteen, cellies, concerns, conversation, Correctional, dislike, Dr. Samenow, Earned Release Program, engaged, ERP, ERP Group Coordinator, event, fear, FMCI, Fox Lake, gambling, Green Bay Packers, haters, hosptialization, inmate, Institution, kid, Larry Sands, loved ones, manipulative, mental, Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility, Minimum, mood, Ms. Grey, MSDF, Pittsburgh Steelers, relationships, rules, season, sexually, shutting, stakes, Suicide, Super Bowl, talk, tension, trash, violence, wagers, Wisconsin, Wisconsin Prison System, WPS
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). This weekend was the Super Bowl where Wisconsin’s own Green Bay Packers were taking on the Pittsburgh Steelers. All week the usual trash talk has been going on but not nearly the level it was at Fox Lake Minimum Correctional Institution (FMCI). Still you had your haters, who dislike the Packers just to get under people’s skin, and of course those genuinely rooting for the Steelers such as one of my cellies, Andre Charles. Events such as these draw more than the normal gambling going on and it also means the stakes are higher. During the season it was common to see meal trays as the object of the wagers. Not this time though. People bet canteen dollar amounts, paid for at the next order of canteen by the inmate who lost. Of course this is entirely against the rules. But that’s not why I don’t do it. You have a way of knowing if the inmate your betting with hasn’t made so many bets he’s in over his head and now he might react if he’s unable to pay everyone. Of course, keep in mind, it’s me we’re talking about. I’ve been pretty risk averse during my time in prison. But cellie Brian Whalen almost did find himself in a situation. He bet with others $10 of canteen (a large sum around here) the Steelers would win with assurances from Andre that he’d help cover his bet if he lost. Of course, when he lost, Andre didn’t know who he was which upset Whalen. I’d been enjoying the quiet since he stopped talking to me but now that Whalen and Andre are feuding that’s gone. I’m just glad it’s not me for a change! Andre took the Steelers loss much better than expected and we had a good conversation. I guess he has to talk to me now since I’m all he’s got if Whalen and him are going at it. The next morning Ms. Grey, our ERP Group Coordinator, arrived in what appeared to be a bad mood, shutting down all football talk because she’s ‘not a fan’. We had a surprise this morning as she called on group member Larry Sands to read his autobiography again. Again, Sands missed the mark on what Ms. Grey wanted but it was improved. He spoke of his father’s suicide, violence, mental hospitalizations and a woman twice his age taking advantage of him sexually – and all of this as a kid. As he aged, he engaged in serial relationships – if you can call it that – with woman he manipulates with ease. At the end, we didn’t have much to say. But Ms. Grey had a lot to say. She voiced her concerns that he engaged in bad guy behavior while putting it out there as if he was being a good guy. The tension between the two was pretty obvious. I volunteered that perhaps the manipulative serial relationships indicated a fear of desertion and being alone hoping he would talk about where those fears came from. Ms. Grey challenged me, asking if I was condoning his behavior. No, but I understood from his background I told her. The answer seemed to satisfy her. It should. It’s the truth. After lunch we watched more videos from Dr. Samenow focusing on manipulation we do of our loved ones. Ms. Grey had us write down one time we manipulated someone. But she returned Sands paper as it wasn’t about him as well as group member Augie Prescott. She collected Sands autobiography as well as the autobiography from group member Kevin House who is scheduled to have his read tomorrow. We’re all talking amongst ourselves just because Ms. Grey isn’t operating as she normally does. But we’ll see what happens.
No Particular Place To Go
Posted: February 24, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: addition, announcement, article, Brett, cells, comments, coordinator, Correctional, crimes, custom, deception, denial, depth, Detention, direction, disorganization, failure, Favre, felon, Frank, Fridays, girlfriend, gratification, Grey, homework, info, inmates, Institution, interstate, lady, Larry, letter, life, Lucy, member, Milwaukee, MSDF, Narcissistic, news, paperwork, Particular, person, Place, prayers, Prison, procedures, Program, Racine, recovery, Release, room, Secure, self, situation, skit, System, therapist, Throughout, Vicodin, Whalen, Wisconsin, word, world
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). Our ERP group coordinator, Betty Grey is really struggling. We didn’t see her at all yesterday and today she pulled us together in that same dimly lit exercise room. She was clearly frustrated with the situation. Having come from Racine Correctional Institution (RCI), I’m sure she was far more supported than she is here. Questions inmates in the group had that are especially centered around visitation with the holiday coming up, questions regarding interstate compacts (which permit inmates to move across state lines) and other MSDF procedures. Ms. Grey just had no answer. Larry Sands, a group member, suggested we ask the other group coordinators those questions which made Ms. Grey uncomfortable. Throughout the rest of the day she handed out paperwork that we should have been given at the time homework was given that gave us direction on how to do it. It was just a sense of general disorganization, something someone new in a job might very well have. I feel bad for her to be honest. We had our community meeting today, my first while in the ERP program. The phrase today was “Always do what you are afraid to do” and the word today was “grim” as in “No man ever understands his own artful dodges to escape the grim shadow of reality” talking about how we practice denial and don’t even see the depth of our own self deception. Then a skit was done about how we pursue the easier short sighted self gratification instead of working for a better future. We provided comments on each as they occurred. Then one man stood up with the news article for the week and it focused on Brett Favre’s streak ending. He tied it to what we’re doing here by saying Favre was in recovery and accomplished his streak while in recovery from his Vicodin addition. The only problem is Favre is not in “recovery” at least not in the traditional sense. But nothing was said. The announcement was made we wouldn’t have this meeting the next 2 Fridays because of the holidays. My cellie, Frank Whalen, then stood up to read something but the coordinator told him not to which was odd. The meeting broke and we all went to clean our cells as is the custom on Fridays. Whalen came and got me and asked me to read what he had. HIs girlfriend, a 60 year old therapist (he’s 44) had written him an amazing letter describing him as a Narcissistic but that he was an awesome, terrific person to her. Turns out he hadn’t even read it and he was going to read it to the whole group. I told him this was a bad idea as she went into detail on his failure and sex life and I felt that some inmates would use that info to torture him. Whalen asked me what was in it and I told him his girlfriend loved him very much but had some things to tell him and he should sit down by himself to read it. I was envious of him for a minute, having such a lady who stood by him despite his crimes. But I was happy he’s not alone in this world. I got a letter saying Lucy had changed her mind and decided I couldn’t stay there when I get out due to personal reasons. It’s her right to change her mind and I can’t really blame her. I’m a felon and a burden at this point. Of course, I’d already turned in my paperwork on this so I don’t know what will happen. I’ve got 23 weeks to go but Ms. Grey wants to know now to do her job. I appreciate your prayers and I’ll keep working on this.
It’s Not Home If Your Not Wanted
Posted: February 22, 2011 in UncategorizedTags: Again, area, assignments, August, bracelets, breakfast, cancer, cases, chains, clock, cocoa, Correctional, degrees, Detention, food, frost, habit, Hartland, highway, Home, horror, Hospital, Institution, Jackson, LaCrosse, Madison, March, Milwaukee, moment, MSDF, Prison, Program, Release, remission, roads, Secure, System, tray, Unit, winter, Wisconsin, world
I’m at the Milwaukee Secure Detention Facility (MSDF), an institution in the Wisconsin Prison System (WPS), participating in the Earned Release Program (ERP). I got called out to the guard station right after the first count, and right before breakfast. The guard told me to hurry up and eat because they were coming to take me for some reason. I suspected I was having another PET scan to verify my cancer remains in remission. I asked the guard if he was sure he wanted me to eat as I knew they needed my stomach empty. He said he didn’t know and put it up for me. They came and got me and again asked me if I’d eaten. Again I told them I shouldn’t. They were suppose to tell me the previous evening but fortunately I hadn’t ate a thing after 8 pm. The short black guard who strip searched me in a cage verified I should not eat was friendly enough. Unlike last time, I had to wear the chains and bracelets which nicely accessorized my banana yellow uniform. And of course, we seem to always pick the best weather days for my trips. Today was the coldest of the winter so far. It was 0 degrees and 14 below wind-chill. It was good to see the outside world even if it had frozen. We took Highway 16W and stopped at the PDQ gas station in Hartland, WI – less than a mile from my former home, family still lives and where I used to stop for gas and cigarettes on or on my way back to or from work. It felt like a moment from the Twilight Zone TV show. There was enough frost on the windows to obscure their view in the van which I was grateful for. The ride there was cold, as the guards kept turning the heat down but it was my fault for not speaking up. I have a habit of doing that. They took all sorts of side roads doing what many guards do – milking the clock. When we got there I got to go to the prison at UW Madison. No minimum lockup this time. It was ok though as I saw guys I knew from Jackson Correctional Institution (JCI), where I was March through August of this year. Things are the same there except for the large amounts of snow fallen on the LaCrosse area. There are many horror stories from the medical cases of how they are being handled I was told about but I’m not going to repeat what I don’t have any way of documenting. I am sorry to those looking for it, if that disappoints you. But you know you’ve been around awhile when hospital staff greet you by name. It was uneventful from there. But the bag lunch I used to despise was better and more filling than the food at MSDF. When I got back I got strip searched again and returned to my unit. They actually saved my breakfast tray so I ate my cocoa roos (like cocoa puffs), and joined my group working on yesterday’s assignments. But it occurred to me I need to stop thinking of this area as home to successfully move on. But just where will home be?